well, i've just got off the phone with nick and daryl. well, i think i can share all ma probs with them LA. well, i've started reading the book, wendy and ed gave us for our conformation. well. its really scary LA. but the thing is, it has really made an impact on my heart. u see, i've been back-sliding alot. i dun think anyone in my church can see it. so, i read the book and it told me about satan attacking us like a dead corpse, when it becomes infected with maggots and stuff LA. this really made me realise what i've been doing. well, ever since i stepped into BDS, or in fact, secondary school, i've been swearing and cursing, disobeying my parents. it does not reflect one thing of me being a christian. i've not been doing quiet time also. so, my spiritual growth has sort of stop, i also wud like it to continue. i guess, conferences dun really do anything. i'll haf to continue the fire after its over. well, i have this passion of getting my close frens to become christians. but i ask myself again. whyy am i being so vulgar and stuff. well, i've not really been trying to get close to the Lord once again. BUT i will try. from today. i've just sent a msg to joalin. i really hope she can help mi as i can see her growing in the Lord everyday. well, sometimes i do wonder like why i even sing during worship. im just kidding myself right?! i dun even read the bible. why do i even go to church. well, from today, all that is gonna change. i wna grow in the Lord. i wna grow more in the Lord. so, i'll try to do that. i pray Lord, that there will be a change. in reply Jesus declared. ' i tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God, unless he is born again. John: 3: 3. For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. romans: 3:23 for the wages of sin is daeth, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23. i've decided. im going back to the Lord, TONIGHT. Lord, i believe in you. i dedicate my life to you. lead me in your ways, let me not lead astray Lord. Lord, take control of my life Lord, i give it all to you. Let me be a living testimony to many. i give my life back to you Lord, we pray all this, in Jesus's name. AMEN! I LOVE YOU LORD! ((:

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